The current week was troublesome. I got a depressive phase again and it felt like all the energy was sucked out of my body. Really, my energy levels felt absolutely depleted, to the point that it’s hard to describe it … Continue reading In Search of Energy
I didn’t feel very good over the last days. I’d call it a short relapse of depression. I probably never get rid of these issues, but I learned to live with it or how to maneuver myself faster out of it. But maybe it was a mix of that and spring fever. The weather was also not constant, we had very cold days and very warm days, and temperatures in-between. That’s at least what I noticed when I found the energy to open my windows. I am very sensitive to these changes too. I was pretty exhausted and tired all-day. … Continue reading Crawling out of a Hole
With a history of depression, I am kinda happy that this is not a big issue anymore. But to be honest, there are days or weeks where I am getting close to the borderline of depression again. This week was … Continue reading The Corporation Smile And Some Annoying Things In Our Society
The picture above is just a random photo from my library. This here is more of a diary entry, and not so much about the photo. Today I had to go on errands, I basically had a bit of paperwork and wanted to drop the paperwork at the authorities. I like it this way, because I let them copy the paperwork, and I won’t leave if I don’t get a date stamp on my original. In this world, where everyone wants to pee on your knees (as we say in Germany if someone wants to cause issues), it’s better to … Continue reading Life Keeps Us All Very Busy
You might wonder why I do upload the boring picture above. I think, it describes both very well, my mood and how it looks like outside most of the time. I felt pretty burned out over the last week. I mean it’s dark and grey outside all the time, and it could just be vitamine D deficiency, but since I have experience with depression, I could be worried about a relapse too. But recently I felt so exhausted that I didn’t even had the energy to worry about anything, and apart from that, I learned how to deal with up’s … Continue reading Dark Mood, Dark Season
I don’t write often about it, not because I wouldn’t like to, rather because the whole issue was not a too big problem anymore, at least when I compare it with the past. The problem was that I suffered from depression and social anxiety years ago. I really got out of this mess, but sometimes things can bounce back for a while. I want to write about this today. I want to fight over the last bastion, that means, I don’t want to feel healthy most of the time, I want to feel healthy all the time. When there are … Continue reading Fighting Depression And Anxiety Relapse
Diary of Dennis 