It’s the time of artificial light. It’s almost the whole day dark, even at daytime because of the clouds. I do usually like this season but for some reason this time not so much, or I am just not ready for it yet. Since it’s colder and darker, I didn’t take any new photos outside. One of the reasons is that I am not very inspired at the moment to find new subjects, and the other reason is that I don’t have the right mood for this season. However, I think it’s sometimes good to make a break with something, and apart from that I have still so many photos in my library that I didn’t upload yet. No, I won’t give up with photography, that would be a scandal, but it’s sometimes good to take it easy, to find new ideas. Also it’s sometimes good to do other activities so that you don’t burn out.
I am happy that my apartment is refurbished and I still do some changes here and there. That’s where I was really productive, but apart from that I was rather lazy in my free time. I still visit my uncle (who got a brain tumor, in case you’re new to the blog) regularly, because I want him to know that someone cares. Grandma, grandpa and my mother, we all do care a lot. It happens slowly but he is getting more and more problems and we are sometimes wondering how long this will still go well. But overall we don’t think so much about the things that will happen next. But you sometimes need to talk about this, but ironically my friends find the topic much more difficult to process than I do. It’s maybe because we are already used to the fact that he is terminal ill. So, when one of my friends asked me how I deal with it, I notice that they have much more difficulties to find words than I do. I don’t blame them when they can’t find words or when I hear in their voices that the topic disease and death makes them feel a bit uneasy. I don’t feel that way anymore because the topic is around us for so long now.
Of course I don’t forget my own life. I would do the usual stuff like hiking, taking photos and so on, but this season I decided to be a couch potato. Maybe because the renovation of my apartment was a lot of work and I enjoy my apartment more now. But as said, you sometimes have to rotate with you interests unless you want to get some kind of a burn out with a certain hobby. Recently I was really in the mood to play PC games in the evenings, and I also watched Netflix a lot. I am playing World of Warcraft with a friend again since a while, but we don’t enjoy the game as much as back then because the developer really downgraded the game, but as a pastime it’s still ok. I watched the second season of “The Expanse” on Netflix since I liked the first season so much. After that I started with “House of Cards” and I like it too but I still didn’t finish it yet. But that’s the stuff I am currently up to in this season, and watching Netflix in my cozy living room is really good.
That’s also one of the reasons why I did publish much fewer posts on my blog. There are months when you publish like crazy, and other months where you just can’t do it. I think if I would force myself to do something, I would eventually give up at some point, but since I don’t do this, I always come back. If you’re new to blogging, that’s something you could write down. I can’t give you a source but when Technorati was still a thing, they measured that about 80% of bloggers or so gave up in the very first year of blogging. I don’t know anymore if the number is right, but it was an incredible huge percentage. Every pseudo-expert in the web does preach that you need a clear blogging schedule but I would place a bet on it that this is the master recipe to be one of the person that eventually give up. There is a clear difference between jobs and passions. Blogging shouldn’t feel like a job, it should be fun. That’s how I deal with all my interests. There have been months where I played my guitar every single day, and then there have been weeks where I absolutely couldn’t touch it because whatever I played sounded the same, and that is the point where you need to put the guitar to the side for a while.
I am running out of thoughts and words. I hope you guys enjoy your time. If you like, tell me in the comment section what you are up to at the moment…