Two weeks ago my uncle came into the hospice and we visited him every day. Today in the morning around 8am he fell asleep and died a peaceful death. Generally, his last weeks have been very peaceful without pain. We told him a lot of nice things, but he couldn’t answer anymore but he did not unlearn how to smile. And we all mastered non-verbal communication. He slept a lot, but when he woke up, it was still possible to reach him. There have been silent moments, or moments where we talked about past days and other beautiful things and it seemed to make him feel comfy. But overall it was lots of sleep for him.
Today in the morning he took his last breath, and while we are of course sad, it’s not that we are in deepest sorrow. This might sound cold, but it was now for two years clear, it was the Glioblastoma diagnosis and we all knew what that would mean. In other words, we have been in deepest sorrow already earlier, but at some point we had to accept what it would mean for his future, otherwise we all would have stopped to function in this time. I am sad, but I am also happy that I got the chance to meet such a beautiful person. What happened today takes also a lot of weight off my mind, because now I know that he doesn’t have to suffer from the symptoms anymore. We will miss him, but we will also have to look forward because there is still a future for us. I know he wouldn’t want us to fall into a depression.
Rest in Peace my uncle and friend. I will never forget all those great moments we enjoyed together. I will never forget. I can’t ask why someone dies, because I don’t even understand how life is possible. However the universe does work, maybe the energy that our soul is does find a new place, but even if that is not the case, together we’ve been part of something in time and space. Rest in Peace my friend and uncle.